A wise man once told me that crisis causes change; he was right. I held very tight to this idea and adapted to the energy swirling around me. I am glad I listened but now that life has settled down, I can’t decide if stagnancy should be considered a crisis or not. I certainly don’t want a crisis, so I have decided I must create the change I am looking for; I am starting with my runs in the morning. A new playlist and a new route connected me to my shadow. It is weird to watch yourself run, mainly because my arms resemble a T-rex, but it is cool, it takes self-reflection to a new place. It has helped me see myself from the outside in.
I have been searching and searching for a new city to live in, or a new way to change my life, but none of the options felt right. I feel like I am supposed to be making grand moves or landing a great new job, but forcing these things upon myself, would only set me back. It would take me farther from my dreams of being an artist, something I am not willing to compromise. I am beginning to realize, I must take advantage of the present moment, I need to stop investing my energy in all the places I am not, and focus.
As I prepare for August to fly by, I am excited for the switch in the seasons. This September I won’t change because of a crisis, but because I want to.